Manal and Alaa's bit bucket

I'm surprized by how many people blog,some write about political concerns,others on music or any other interests,but the majority write mainly about personal experiences and feelings,self-expression in a space where you can say whatever you want and got listened to without any interruptions or censoring.

Therefore, I'm interested in knowing:
- why you blog?
- How it started?
- Will there be a day when you stop blogging and delete it all?

I want the follwing bloggers specially to answer my questions :

i'm in a mood for partying, i just feel like being with many friends with a loud favorite hits dancing specially salsa & dabka.This mood haunts me since couple of days & i just can't ignore it,It's been long long time since i dressed up for occasion,just the normal working days or casual outings.I just feel like dressing special and dancing with some lovely friends.

D my friend & T my best male friend are now committed after a long cat-rat game 'n they're now planning for near official committment.I'm not as pessed off as before since they look compatible now 'n me 'n him get closer back after long disagreement over same issue.now we reconciled,not like before the intimate friends since he's so busy with his girl.but i'm not offended,he's not agreat loss after all 'n i'm happy with the level of friendship we 've now,before it was closer out of his being uncommitted,kinda need to someone who listens to him but since he finds a girl now,we're to the normal friendship now.

My Cell. number was changed today by mistake & i've to wait 24 hrs to regain it back. At first i got furious and felt lost but after awhile i came to think,,well it's nice to feel disonnected from all, even for a while.How my friends & family will feel when they call me as usual and they hear that funny shocking metal voice" the number you're dialling is INCORRECT".
wooow,a surprise isn't it?. Have you ever felt like you want to exeperience being disconnected,unavailable,lost, or missed?
How you felt if ever you lost your cell phone?,which turend truely to be unseperable thing from our life,at least most of us.Those damn companies managed to make somethg that started as extravaggant luxury as almost oxygen in our life; you can't live without.

will write now abt trivial stuff as i feel so relaxed with Buddha Bar playing Pink martini.I 'll write about things i'm passionate about :
*Having shower - ice cream- bananas- music- going out- changing places- teasing people - intimacy- talking - listening to people's problems - loving- listening to kids' talks - animal programs - cartoons- cosy cafes - not combing my hair- messing up my room - watching people- sleeping in a moving vehicles- watching roads in amoving vehicles- sleeping- piano- dancing - meeting new faces- falling in love- openair outings - worms gummy
it's nice to be grateful to people and show them you appreciate their help.It really does magic. Yesterday in Turkish Embassy was a hectic day as we've to register names before 7:30 a.m. then apply after 9.30 a.m. leaving 2 hours in early morning for you to find no open cafe spend your time at. Then when coming back to apply, they don't provide a human place for you to wait, you'r left under the burning sun infront of the gate beyond your appointment.I was too furious at the begenning but didn't fight with the security guy knowing he has nothing to do with that,i decided to say it formally in a fax sent to the Embassy itself about how unprofessional & inhuman it's.Getting a turkish visa turned to be way harder than getting a shengen.it was surprise for me how complicated & stupid their procedures are,unlike shengen which was the easiest visa for me to get.you get appointment on phone,come on your time to finish everything in 1 hour then come another day for 5 minutes to get ur visa.In turkish embassy I came at 7:00 a.m ,then at 11:a.m waited till 2 p.m. for my role in the sun heat coz i can't go to any cafe list i miss my "appointment".Amongst all that, i told myself 'come on R. you're going to Turkey,get excited & cheer up" only then i get positive & cool.This results in me meeting the official with arelaxed attitude & true smile that led him to be so friendly with me, unlike all the others, i spent longer time than others with him running a friendly convo on the meaning of my name,why i'm travelling, how i get to be involved in such stuff.He asked me to wait till he present my papers to the counselor,then after awhile he called me saying I won't pay visa fees as I'm waived from it.till now I don't know why but it's good news always not to pay:).Then he asked me if it's my first time ,he then told me abt his personal relation with Ankara mayor & gave me huge collection of touristic bruchures on Turkey.I was worried abt repeating same delay when coming to get my visa but he assured me if i waited for more than 5 minutes to come to him directly.

I'm going to Turkey,Ankara, next week for few days.First I've to start gettin excited abt visiting such a fascinating, worthy-sightseeing place.I need to be with a positive attitude coz recently i lost my usual joy of travelling around the world.Last time I got excited was Amsterdam trip & after that everytime I feel nothing special except when i'm back & people start applauding the places i went & bet i'd the best time ever at such a place " like Lebanon ;)" only then i start thinking " ooops!! I was in Lebanon,how come I didn't get the best outta it" Frankly I don't wanna repeat that in Turkey as a place I always dreamt of visiting to see its architecture & culture. How to get in the mood of excitment & joy ,how to be psychologically prepared not to miss a second without fun?

Today ,we two sisters finally met my older sis's crush.was fun giving him the hardest time ever,started with me forgetting his name by asking "ur younger bro.'s name is M." calling his name on his bro,which only indicates my total forgetting of his own name just putting it on his bro.All over the meeting,my younger sis kept on telling him her famous statement -quoted from Meet the Parents movie-" you're not in the circle" specially whenever he says he's getting closer or whatever.we were too honest & dare with him coz it's how we felt comfortable dealing,but i think it was too stressful for him,not only meeting people he knows their opinion weigh for my sis but also our too direct opinion of him & the relation,he was so tensed in the beginning with a face turning red and shaking hands/legs.He made it harder on himself by suggesting "spin the bottle ".He started asking question on him & her & we can't help but saying the truth with its worries & concerns.I liked cornoring the guy actually but i liked more his answers & reactions.He's friendly,kind,responsible & really wants to commit respectefully to her,at least till now.

so yesterday i went to one day trip in el 3in el so7'na after I made it up with my super.on the way,I was near to death,I got saffocated by swallowing a big candy hang in my throat blocking me from breathing. It was damn big tht it can't either get out or down to my stomach.They stopped the shuttle & all were down trying first aiding me.My super told them abt the proper first aid;that's to press with both hands on my stomach & shake me up to breath.He asked any girl to do what he said & none of the girls can do properly,still no guy dared to aid me.How stupid some egyptian guys become sometimes,they can let a girl die out of saffocation rather than touching her body closely.I didn't mind how no guy or my super dared to do the aid for me but when i called my younger sister who studies medicine & told her,she got so angry with their way,she told me saffocation with food is a dead case & anyone who can do first aid should do it whether a guy or a girl.Only then i wondered their way & i can't really understand it.

What a Fucking day!!
started with me & my friend D getting to work when all of sudden she freezed & headed to a car parking by the gate,she started talkin & her face was so tensed that i felt things are not ok & definitely the one in the car is not a colleague.I felt he's her loser ex boyfriend.She asked me not to wait for her with that worried face & to go work.She came after minutes & burst into long crying from the shock of finding him at her workplace,he asked her to fix it up & told her his dad called her dad & will meet him soon trying to convince of their marriage.She doesn't want him anymore & tht is really burning her nerves.We left work early coz of a fire in the building & the 3rd floor started to burn & flames all around,we left work & stayed downstairs till they overcame the fire which destroyed part of the floor,i joked with jiji that we 'd have been grilled girls now.My first time in my life to be at a place with fire,i was so cool & so slow in leavin the place,i don't know why i didn't care if i got burned then,just a careless feeling tht nothing really matters.My super. stayed upstairs don't know till now why,but after everynthg is over, i went upstairs to see him with a red flamed 'n tired face,actually i feel how manly responsible he 's day after another.

It's very astonishing how we're getting older sometimes without noticing.You just oneday realize it's been looooong time since.........since whatever happened or how you looked or how you were talking.
We'd a house at a countryside where we planted lots of plants & trees in the frontyard & we used to spend part of the summer or our vacation in Egypt at.My sister visited that house few days ago & she came today telling me how it was.She told me how the small tree we planted lately is now very long,with strong branches and extended leaves to the extent it reached the second floor.She also told me that our cousin is studying nowadays for the last year in preparatory school.I stopped astonished like " yaaaaaaaaah, days pass very quickly,that cousin who was a small shy kid used to sit on my lap,that tree who was very small & we even felt it will be always like that or even will die soon. Time is passing terribly without me noticing,i found out that we planted that tree 5 years ago & it sounds for me just like few days.I grew up & reached 23 though i still feel it was just a year since i was 16 old naughty girl who used to make troubles at high school.

we'd a VIP visitor today at work,& my "married":P super recommended me to accomapny him as a translator during the visit.It was lovely actually since the man is really smart & visionistic,it wasn't a boring translation task,i always enjoy simultaneous interpretation,& it was also a chance to talk with him abt various issues.Seems we get well along as he asked me since when i work & what i like & dislike in the place & he was writing what I say,I was just talking my mind till my super & managers poped up again beside us.we stopped talking & after some general talks he told them"we've some private convo here,so could you please disappear?" they laughed outloud & left us alone to our talk.He was a witty man & after finishing my super told me :from now on we've to set appointment to talk with you".I'm really grateful for the trust & all the cahnces he gave me.He even mentioned for the man & managers that i was offered a UN fellowship & I preferred to stay, a fact that opened another discussion on me as a person.i'm not a VIP company fan,i even always avoid it, but it was kinda change today just to talk with a new face.He even looks & talks the same way like a dear one,but a bit younger,memories:)

I slept today almost 17 hours just to be in shape.last two days were hectic due to little sleep & extra effort.I'd a whole day session at work,they claimed it will be fun but actually it was nerves-consuming.The trainers were totally kids who lose control over the day & let such silly showy people to joke and say craps all the day.At the begenning of the day I was totally pessed off like most of my team & i even used to leave the room whenever a silly one starts talking,till i told them openly my opinion about the session.Only after that I felt peace & thought of taking that day as a learning process,to see how they manage a seeion,their defects,short comings,types of people who attend and how to manage each regardeless of their differences.I imagined myself as the trainer & started thinkin how to manage.That was amusing.

Yesterday wasn't the best ever, I slept little the day before & promised myself with an early sleep to make it up.I went bed & fell deep asleep till I woke up from another terrible nightmare,it was one of the hardest that I woke up with a severe cramp in my left leg which is still painfyl till the moment i'm writing now.Waking up from that nightmare,I was so scared & feeling bad that I cried for awhile after it.The support i sought to get me out of the fear was totally disappointing to the extent that its bad effect lasted for the whole day.It's killing when you need real care at the most time you need & still you can't get it.
Anyway, I called my supervisor at 4 pm to ask for early leave as I can't work at all,i was totally furious & fragile.He asked me to wait till he finishes meeting & comes so we can talk, but I really needed to leave,& started crying on my desk.My friend yasso took me out & I told her about the whole thing & how i was ignored & uncared for when i needed.I cried till feelin relieved & she took me to get some soft drinks & chocolates.I got better & kept working till my super came & asked me " are you still crazy like when you called me ?", I looked at him & said " i'm not gonna talk to you", i was kidding but seems my face was too tensed to translate that,so he answered back " better for me,,raya7ty"

So today was another episode of continious interesting situations between my super & me.He again asks me to stop being childish crazy girl who hits the ground with her foot when disliking something,he used to laugh at this spontaneous reaction of me when we talk about something that irritates me.he asked me" why I always feel you're all the time irritated R? whenever I ask you why you did that you always tell me coz that person / thing irritates me " istafaziny",why you're all time mostafaza?",He says.
He's right,i think i'm all the time on verge,such an over sensitive touchy girl who gets upset from little action.Today again I reacted to one of his situations with me by returning back to my desk being upset, or as he calls me always "ma2mosa",& I continued working in a tensed way, or as he calls it "magnona we 3aiela".Then as usual today he comes again to make it up with me , or as I call it "yesali7ny" I like that in him so much,everytime since I knew him when anything gets wrong between us, I find myself getting upset,back off and start the subconscious childish "ma2mosa" state till he comes sitting beside me orcalling me then he starts asking me wht's wrong though he already knows it,we keep talking & discussing & he keeps laughing at my answers & reactions till we get fine.Even if i'm most of the time the wrong party,but everytime after he makes me feel my mistake & I get ma2mosa, he comes to make it up all with me.

Here I tag this upon KareemfromEgypt request,that smart popular blogger who asked me among others to answer the following questions.Reading them in his blog,I thought,oh this's interesting but needs lots of thinking since they're unexpected questions,i wonder how can he come up with these answers.Then at the end I found him cornoring me by asking if i can do it too.well,it worth trying & as much as i know about you through them,I think you'll know abt me as well,if we both tell the truth here ;)

so Here it goes.....

1-Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as your dinner guest? As your close friend? As your lover?
Dinner guest will be Gandi,to know a way of living I love in him.Close friend will be my mom. Lover,hmm the One I love , or Yul Brynner,the Magnificient Seven moviestar/ or Brad pitt also from modern time.

Everyday myself surprises myself bardo by my moody instant changing moods.Today I was ok in the morning ,then in the afternoon I felt so bad for just trivial reasons of not sitting beside my friends at work upon my supervisor's refusal.I felt so lonely & bad that I worked abit with a bad mood till he came sitting beside & teased me" I see you're working with a nervous way,has any client upset you?",I looked at him challenging & said " no client on earth could upset or provoke me coz I know how to manage them even if I did mistakes".So he asked back" so no client can upset you,can any supervisor do? (hinting about himself)" with his childish teasing look, my cold challenging face immediately collapsed & I laughed outloud.He then left his place.
Just after that minute I started a group chat with my friends where I laughed alot.Ohh I got also a Fax from a client thanking me & saying strange words about how dedicated & excellent I'm.He didn't only send the fax but he insisted on talkin to my manager personally & he told him that I should be hired in a senior position to fit my qualifications as he sees.Ok i'm flattered but I didn't feel I'm all what he said,I just did my job as it should be & give the man his rights,but thanks anyway.

I've my hair cut yesterday,something I decided to do few months ago & never had time for.Finally yesterday,out of seeking any change I did it, & exactly as I wanted it to be,I've a lovely short haircut fits that hot weather.My sisters told me it makes my face cute,younger & naughty,kinda rebellious as they say.One of my major concerns about the short hair cut was it will stop the hair falling on my eyes & disturbing me while sleeping & during the day,somethg that used to irritate but still amuse me,Thank God, the smart hairdresser managed to make a short haircut but still with relatively long locks on the forehead.I like it so much & it just came on time.
I maanged also to have my space away from my friend T who really stressed me out recently though i've had enough.He's too selfish recently not stopping talking about his silly,trivial & boyish issues even at a time when I tell him that I'm totally out of mood & can't listen or discuss what he says,He astonishingly ignores my straight comment & keeps talking & talking in a very evocative way.Recently I don't know why I see many defects in him,I critisize almost everything about him and his personality & I was too sharp with him.I hated his many calls every day telling me "I need to talk to you" & he keeps talkin about same issues everytime & I keep telling my same opinion & he says his same recations & we keep moving in this damn F***** circle with no end.I'm known to be a good listener & my close friends tell me that I even stress myself for the sake of others,they always advise me to take it easy on myself & not to be responsible for everyone.I've no problem listening to him,but may be coz recently he only talks ignoring me,even when i tell him "T I can't listen well to u now coz i'm really depressed/busy/stressed out/confused for bla bla bla" he pauses for seconds and then starts talkin abt his own issues ignoring my state,even not asking why im that or what's annoyin me.Just pausing & start again.That irritated me so much & I decided to put an end for it.He,since few months, talks abt the same helpless stupid issue regarding him & D & the confusion she gave him through her moving between him and her bf whom she decided few months ago to break up with & till now can't do it totally.She is using a very mean way by blaming the break up on her family unapproval as she told him& as a result she still talks & sees him but as a helpless girl who'll leave him soon coz of her famil,she manged to convince th epoor guy!!.T talks about this confusion and how she sometimes deals with him as if likin him and othertimes as just a friend,we keep the same issue for months till i'm fed up since i add nothing & help in nothing so why the talk specially that with every talk,,i attack & criticize the girl who's my friend.I told him to stop thattalk coz i don't wanna attack her anymore but no vain.

I maynot travel for that fellowship.I'm now in this taugh process of deciding and figuring out the positives & negatives of this fellowship.Here I write down what I reached so far:
Positives:
1-fellowship with UN will be a credit in my C.V if I decided finally oneday to work with int'l organizations,one of my hopeful future careers butstill not final.This fellowship also could be the first step in my path towards that field as some people claim "once you're in,you won't be out" meaning they will keep you with them in the same circle even if they officially announce that no promise for future work.
2-Living alone for 6 months will improve my independence and self reliance.I will come back more strong and mature after facing everything alone ,Personality development.

I've been accepted for NewYork Fellowship of the UN.Working/volunteering with Int'l organization such as Un used to be one of my very bright & farfetched dreams.Today it came true.They sent me email congratulating & informing that we'll start intensive work in this month to finish all the required paperwork so I can be in NY in "June".Oh My!! this's so fast.Reading the mail,I found my self so down & shoked,I replied formally & went to bed where I spent almost 2 hours crying.I'm personally shoked from my reaction.I always imagined this to be one of the best moments in my life,but I really felt down,I'd that feeling I don't wanna leave,I don't wanna leave now.Somehow,my life now is stable & promising.I've a very wonderful supervisor who motivates me everyday to wake up & go work just to deal with him,I've very loyal amusing friends & i'm having a very good salary & benefits at my job now.I was planning to start spanish & aeurobics classes, learn driving & by next week I'd have had my own car.All these stabilities I can't leave now,I feel like I started building my own life here and on the emotianl level, I can't leave my fancy supervisor & friends, I want to stay with them.Also,though My job now is not my field,but it was a step towards what I want & still it has a very good package and i'm stable there.Now i've to leave all that for almost 9 months as fellowship in NY and then 3 months in my country office.i'm so confused & unexpectedly not welcoming that change.I always wanted to work abroad for few years but now when it's Real,I feel differnt than what I ever thought.I'm not a patriot loyal citizen at all, but living totally alone abroad makes me abit scared, what if I got sick there? what if i faced some troubles or get dumped,what if i widen my social circle there out of being alone & this put me in troubles? when I was sick for one night in Lebanon & found noone to help, I really felt bad & understood well what loneliness means.knowing I'll leave soon, I told someone first about all that & then my super & friends nextday.my super set with me for almost an hour trying to help me figuring out what's best for me without imposing his own view.I love that man really,he makes it hard to leave by his being that wonderful.With friends, I cried alot & that's why i'm only telling little people gradually coz really now I can't bear any emotional flood or load,i'm already loaded & confused.I told my sisters yesterday evening after i could hold myself abit & they screamed of joy telling me"ofcourse you've to go you fool,it goes without saying akeed",but then they advised me to ask about all the details regarding what specifically will be my role,paid or not,future possibility to work with them ,,etc.I already sent email asking for clarifications,after getting the whole picture,the major unwelcomed talk with my dad will follow.

My older sis wants us -her two sisters- to meet the guy she has crush on,I won't call him her true love as she calls him Because I honestly don't like him.My friends tell me not to be Idealistic, but I don't know why they see me like that,I just have my own measures and principles that I view people with.
This guy is two years younger than my sister,though she looks younger than her age"she is 24" but still he also looks like a kid"just his 22 years old age".I don't know why he loves a girl older than him.I think a guy could do that only if he takes advantage of the girl, but my sis is not that type. why he doesnt look for a girl that suits him. Personally I'm against their relation because I don't see a fruitful end for it.I don't think it's logical to commit to an undergrad guy who still has two years to graduate & then look for a job and be a decent potential partner.So I don't see any point in committing to him specially she is not young.She will be 26 then & he is only 24, a critical age for "some"girls, and what if after that waiting any misunderstanding happen between them or he even change his mind and they break up? she has waisted her damn life waiting for a loser who left her after graduating,what a fuck!!

Some pieces I heared "On Air" On Dahab Tragedy:
- T.V. announcer, Nile News Channel, said " Till now there's no definite statistics of the Number of Victims" she cut her sentence suddenly after lookin at somethg/someone infront of her,smiled embarrasingly & paused then continued " Till now there's no specific statistics of the Nationalities of Victims" Of course every one could get it,was too late to be buried.
- TV announcer, helplessly repeating the same question & sometimes comment that " Police cars and Emergency vechicles are moving around every meter in Dahab to help & stabilize everything assuring the utmost level of security & protection. I wonder personally, If they are that qualified to be able to ensure security & protection in the place, where were they to avoid the disaster? Can't we excel in Crisis Prevention instead of Crisis Managemnet? why we always react? why can't we Act?

Today, Yusuf, my sister's orphan brother came to spend the day at our house again. He's a cute charming kid who definitely will be an attracive man oneday because of his so cute smile & expressive eyes.But I really felt again that raising a child no matter how sweet he/she is is a real challenge. I pitied my youngest sister who couldn't have breakfast with us as she had to sit feeding him on a small seperate table with a small chair, & after he finished she still couldn't eat as he called her to play with him refusing any of us. Not to mention the bathroom & changing clothes demands, he then wanted to fill the whole bath pool with water to play at.We did as he wanted & he was really cute funny with all of us playing with him in there & taking photos,he was totally happy & after this followed changing cloth & a new stage of playing with bears & doctor's kit.Then he asked for swaying him by each of us holding his arms & legs to wave him.we did it manytimes in a form of shifts/rotation till we all get tired except him ofcourse.Now he left with my two sisters to an amusement park. He's a hyperactive kid whom we really rally enjoyed palying with & he really added so much joy in our house since he is the only kid who visits our house. A kid at home is really brightining the whole world and makin it sweet & worth living.

Today is my Birthday..ok ok I guess you fed up of that word because I repeated it twice before.But it's not my fault actually,what Can I do when I really have 3 birthdays?:(.Anyway, this is not that bad since I don't celebrate any,so don't worry about the present's thing.
Anyway,23.04.06 is the last birthdate for that year,I finsihed now.

My friend Dalia is in US now and she had problem in network,actually she forgot to activate the roaming & I discovered this by chance but I didn't qctivate it for her till I emailed asking about that because may be she does it on purpose to lose contact with people. I managed to activate roaming for her & also to solve a problem in pending SMS's and calls.Sometimes it's a bliss to work in a Telecom company.She will come after other 15 days to travel to UAE, among this Yasso also will go to Paris accompanying her aunt in a medical trip.Then Tarek might go to Holland in a soccer tournament in June. So everynow & then I'll have to go for a kinda farewell outing ,then a visit to the airport either on the way to or from the journey.This rituals started with me when travelling to Lebanon & since they did it for me, we now do it for each one of us.

For the first time ever in my life, in all the houses we lived at whether in Egypt or abroad, I found today a rat in our house. We just came home from shopping " the three sisters", the youngest went to pray while the oldest went to the kitchen to get a cold water.I followed her & I saw a rat moving fastly on the dish washer, I screamed out to my sister who just turned back seeing it and run out after me screaming. We realized that kitchen door is opened so I went so fearfully to close it. The comedy is while going upstairs to our apartment, my sister was telling me "we're so calm residents in this building, no body hears our voice to the extent that they dont even know if we're existing", I agreed on her view, but the moment we entered the house,screams were so loud and I bet all buidling residents now know we do exist.:)

So I followed my heart & here I'm writing back.Thanks to all who cared about my absence,though they are recent readers.Thanks for making me feel it would make a difference,you really motivated me to be back.Eyewitness,Juha and kareem,I'm grateful.
I'm just in a thoughtful mood now,revising & evaluatin my life. Recently my life witnesses a massive 'n noticeable progress on the professional level.I've a new supervisor who's firs of all, a man, something that I really wanted long time ago. In my 3 previous jobs I had a female manager who made my life hell by their so many complexities, damn stupid so much feminine & personal unprofessional way of managing work.Was damn killing to deal with unmarried old female manager who has all the jealous,envy, unstability & craziness enough to give you hard time.Now it's over and my manager is a married man who is so friendly,funny,active & uncomplicated guy who makes me now so much energetic to wake up in the morning and go work mainly to meet & deal with him.Today when he was late at his time of coming, I felt down specially when a colleague said he won't come today.I called him many times to recheck this as I really wanted him to come.Till allof sudden I found him standing behind us with that nice smile.he's great, I like him & work has a much joy with him,i'm more motivated to do well,something I lost long time ago. Welcome the great Change

I hate my blog recently.I feel it's not mine and I don't belong here.It's become so detached and freaky place to me.I feel it's not me and I think seriously of closing it and shutting down everything that was & will be.
I tried manythings to love it.I tried changing template to find something that's mine,but all templates were ugly and nasty. I burned my mind to come up with any talks related to me,to my life,what I love or hate ,what I think of.But it all failed.I hate that place indeed and either I'll stop writing here for a while,or will leave it and walk away to be part of forgotten histroy,or I will delete it all. I just hate it & hate all my previous posts.
So Good bye to all,Good bye to the place that endured me for so long,good bye to the people I knew because of that blog, if I were not a blogger, I wouldn't have met you.

Happy Birthday.Hope you be more satisfied & happier this year.Hope you reach inner Peace.Hope you find the Love you seek & dream of. Hope you sparkle professionally through being a Moral Human. Wish you from all my heart to be the Best,to be complete and to be satisfied,wish you sincerely to be happy.

I searched for anything among the many common things between us,something in yellow,Our Tree,something funny,crazy,one of the many things we share,& I come up with " Mars" Planet surrounded by the Stars " My favorite in Life".It symbolizes our sign, "Aries".We both are Aries, People of the Fire red Planet Mars.people of the passionate fighter and adventerous sign, the dark night and the Stars,something I used to talk about & love deeply.So You Aries, Happy Birthday.

Before US... I Was Alone
Now, it's back to ME.

Today is my Birthday.I feel nothing special since Birthday never meant a special happy occasion for me in general.It's just getting older,passing by experiences-whether bad or good- as simple as such. But anyway, thanks for all those who called at midnight to be the first saying Happy Birthday.Thanks for the SMSs & calls flood since yesterday till today.It's one of the little days I get all that calls one after the other or even a call on hold while nswering the other. Today myfriends will go out for me:Yasso,tarek,Dalia,Lamia & Jiji.Tomorrow may be will have outing with my work team since we've 3 people celebrating their April B-days.This later will be a formal duty more than enjoyment since I don't like my team.

I stand today on the stage to lecture on some view I've.:) since you stopped here, so listen to my nonsense.
I beleive every one should've a second chance,and everyone should have a second chance in everything in his/her life,would it be work,life,relations,or love. There shouldn't be that absolute one time thing, always there's a second chance and a second time.
Actually I'm a beleiver in that philosophy,I admit I lack indeed strong will to do things or finish it.Usually I'm laid back to start what I want.But still, I've one good thing: Positive Attitude towards life. whenever I fall down or lose something,I always hold myself together,start up again and move on,beleiving the loss is for the best of me.I always feel that this own't be the last time & I may've lost in that round but it only means I'm nominated for a better unique coming chance.Ofcourse things don't go that brightly,this state is pre-accompanied by a tragic sense of low self-esteem,self-pity,rebellion,violence,aggressiveness,self-hatred,tendency for self & others' destruction,defeat,weakness and more.This lasts for whatever time it does,but at the end,I stand up again to move on wearing my bright glasses,smiling and looking for the Second Chance.